I understand you have had problems with anxiety... Can you tell me what you mean by that? Do you feel tense, on edge, keyed up?
Oh yeah man.... tension la brother...
Do you have difficulty relaxing?
yeah lor..
Do you feel worried or nervous?
yes.. i do... this exam la... getting on my nerves!
Can I suggest some of the things you may be feeling or experiencing?
Do you experience any of the following?
1.Physical -tiredness, insomnia, headache, dizziness, blurred vision, ringing in the ears, tightness in the throat, dry mouth, feeling of choking, tense and stiff shoulder, racing heart, unable to catch breath, tight chest, fast and shallow breathing, churning stomach, feeling sick, tense muscles, sore joints, sweating, needing the toilet, loss of libido, pins and needles, weakeness in legs, legs like jelly..
Sometimes tired lor.. insomnia.. not really.. I sleep easily... no dizziness...vision 20/20... No loss of libido (hehehehe)... not really running to the toilet more often than I used to.... not feeling sick either.. but appetite's changed... been eating rabbit food lately..... lotsa green things... seldom eat meat.... hmmm... shoulders are tensed and stiff most of the time.... need to drink more water to ease off the dryness in my mouth... no pins and needles... tired... and weakness in my legs... quite pronounced.... was being trashed by Andrew Ong... moving like a jellyfish...
slow reaction.... loss of co-ordination.....
2.Thoughts - restlessness, irritability, poor concentration, fear of death, heart attack or nervous breakdown
Yeah.... been really restless... hehehe.. (as usual)
Nervous breakdown... touch wood.. don't need that now...
3.Behaviour - avoidance, running away from an anxiety provoking situation, these behaviours are maintaining factors
Yeah lor.. I've been avoiding the Sunday badminton sessions at Stevenson's building... in hope that I can focus more... anxiety provoking situations... erm... cannot run away... it's inching closer...
Circumstances of these symptoms
How long?
For a few months..
How often?
Every now and then
Where?
erm... at home? when I keep talking to Do, Re and Mi.... and they keep telling me stories.. very disturbing indeed...
When - triggers VS out of the blue?
A bit of both?
Discrete episodes of panic VS generalised anxiety
generalised feeling of anxiety.. fidgeting from time to time..
Avoidance.
Erm... can't avoid the exams!
Anticipatory anxiety
Yea man...
I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO ENDING IT ALL...
erm.. i mean the exams... :P
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
General H. Guderian, Hitler's Chief of Staff, wrote, in Guderian: Panzer General that in February 1943: "Hitler's left hand trembled, his back was bent, and his gaze was fixed.“
Albert Speer, Hitler's architect and armaments minister wrote in Inside the Third Reich: "In 1944 Hitler was shriveling up like an old man. His limbs trembled, he walked stooped with dragging footsteps.....His uniform, which in the-past he had kept scrupulously neat was stained by the food he had eaten with a shaking hands."
General von Cholitz, the German Commanding General in Paris said, upon meeting Hitler in 1944: "Hitler had become an old man. His face was worn..... His shoulders sagged. He cupped his left hand in his right to hide the trembling of his left arm. But above all, it was his voice that shocked me. The hard raucous voice had faded to a weak whisper.“
G. Boldt, an intelligence officer on Hitler's staff, wrote in Hitler: The Last Ten Days, An Eyewitness Account, that in February 1945: "Hitler's left arm hung limply by his side, and his left hand trembled perceptibly.....He was not the vigorous, energetic Hitler the Germans knew, the Hitler that Goebbels, Minister for Propaganda, still depicted."
S. Knappe, an SS officer wrote in Soldat: Reflections of a German Soldier that on meeting Hitler in April 1945: "I was shocked by his appearance. He was stooped, and his left arm was bent, and shaking.....Both of his hands shook”
Albert Speer, Hitler's architect and armaments minister wrote in Inside the Third Reich: "In 1944 Hitler was shriveling up like an old man. His limbs trembled, he walked stooped with dragging footsteps.....His uniform, which in the-past he had kept scrupulously neat was stained by the food he had eaten with a shaking hands."
General von Cholitz, the German Commanding General in Paris said, upon meeting Hitler in 1944: "Hitler had become an old man. His face was worn..... His shoulders sagged. He cupped his left hand in his right to hide the trembling of his left arm. But above all, it was his voice that shocked me. The hard raucous voice had faded to a weak whisper.“
G. Boldt, an intelligence officer on Hitler's staff, wrote in Hitler: The Last Ten Days, An Eyewitness Account, that in February 1945: "Hitler's left arm hung limply by his side, and his left hand trembled perceptibly.....He was not the vigorous, energetic Hitler the Germans knew, the Hitler that Goebbels, Minister for Propaganda, still depicted."
S. Knappe, an SS officer wrote in Soldat: Reflections of a German Soldier that on meeting Hitler in April 1945: "I was shocked by his appearance. He was stooped, and his left arm was bent, and shaking.....Both of his hands shook”
Thursday, March 15, 2007
# There are no hopeless situations;
There are only men who have grown hopeless about them. #
Clare Boothe Luce (1903-1987)
See what a dog can do! :) .... bark? woof woof woof.....
Nothing is impossible? ..... We'll be seeing flying dogs more often....
Don't say you're hopeless anymore....
ok...
It's a deal....
There are only men who have grown hopeless about them. #
Clare Boothe Luce (1903-1987)
See what a dog can do! :) .... bark? woof woof woof.....
Nothing is impossible? ..... We'll be seeing flying dogs more often....
Don't say you're hopeless anymore....
ok...
It's a deal....
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Say "Yes" - Chage & Aska
余計な物など 無いよね
すべてが君と僕との 愛の構えさ
There is nothing that is redundant about our love
which is made up of everything and completeness.
少しくらいの嘘やワガママも
まるで僕 を試すような
恋人 の フレイズになる
A little lie or wilfulness,
as if to try me,
are only games played by lovers.
このままふたりで 夢をそろえて
何げなく暮らさないか
Shouldn't the two of us place our dreams side by side,
and without thinking deliberately, live a life together ?
愛には愛で感じ合おうよ
硝子ケースに並ばないように
You should use love to feel the presence of love.
Please do not enclose your love inside a glass case.
何度も言うよ 残さず言うよ
君があふれてる
I will say it no matter how many times. I will say it without reservation.
My heart is filled with you.
言葉は心を越えない
とても伝えたがるけど 心に勝てない
My words of love just cannot get beyond my heart.
No matter how much I desire to let you know,
my heart cannot get the upper hand.
君に逢いたくて 逢えなくて 寂しい夜
星の屋根に守られて
恋人の切なさ知った
In this lonely night when I wish so much to see you
and yet cannot see you, watching under the roof of stars,
I understand the sadness and anxiety of a man in love.
このままふたりで 朝を迎えて
いつまでも暮らさないか
Shouldn't the two of us wake up to our mornings together,
and until eternity, live a life together?
愛には愛で感じ合おうよ
恋の手触り消えないように
You should use love to feel the presence of love.
Please do not let this feeling of love be lost.
何度も言うよ 君は確かに
僕を愛してる
I will say it no matter how many times.
You are really in love with me.
迷わずに SAY YES 迷わずに
Don't be perplexed any more. Say Yes.
Don't be perplexed any more.
愛には愛で感じ合おうよ
恋の手触り消えないように
You should use love to feel the presence of love.
Please do not let this feeling of love be lost.
何度も言うよ 君は確かに
僕を愛してる
I will say it no matter how many times.
You are really in love with me.
Say "yes"
:)
余計な物など 無いよね
すべてが君と僕との 愛の構えさ
There is nothing that is redundant about our love
which is made up of everything and completeness.
少しくらいの嘘やワガママも
まるで僕 を試すような
恋人 の フレイズになる
A little lie or wilfulness,
as if to try me,
are only games played by lovers.
このままふたりで 夢をそろえて
何げなく暮らさないか
Shouldn't the two of us place our dreams side by side,
and without thinking deliberately, live a life together ?
愛には愛で感じ合おうよ
硝子ケースに並ばないように
You should use love to feel the presence of love.
Please do not enclose your love inside a glass case.
何度も言うよ 残さず言うよ
君があふれてる
I will say it no matter how many times. I will say it without reservation.
My heart is filled with you.
言葉は心を越えない
とても伝えたがるけど 心に勝てない
My words of love just cannot get beyond my heart.
No matter how much I desire to let you know,
my heart cannot get the upper hand.
君に逢いたくて 逢えなくて 寂しい夜
星の屋根に守られて
恋人の切なさ知った
In this lonely night when I wish so much to see you
and yet cannot see you, watching under the roof of stars,
I understand the sadness and anxiety of a man in love.
このままふたりで 朝を迎えて
いつまでも暮らさないか
Shouldn't the two of us wake up to our mornings together,
and until eternity, live a life together?
愛には愛で感じ合おうよ
恋の手触り消えないように
You should use love to feel the presence of love.
Please do not let this feeling of love be lost.
何度も言うよ 君は確かに
僕を愛してる
I will say it no matter how many times.
You are really in love with me.
迷わずに SAY YES 迷わずに
Don't be perplexed any more. Say Yes.
Don't be perplexed any more.
愛には愛で感じ合おうよ
恋の手触り消えないように
You should use love to feel the presence of love.
Please do not let this feeling of love be lost.
何度も言うよ 君は確かに
僕を愛してる
I will say it no matter how many times.
You are really in love with me.
Say "yes"
:)
Monday, January 15, 2007
HONEY-OVERDOSE
When the revolutionary jazz flutist Eric Dolphy was touring in Europe he arranged to have lessons with Severino Gazzelloni during his stay in Italy. Already the possessor of an awesome technique, Eric Dolphy became extremely interested in the experimental work being done by Gazzelloni. (Listen to Eric Dolphy's composition `Gazzelloni' on the album 'Out To Lunch' dedicated to the great Italian flutist). Gazzelloni in turn was impressed by the adventurous rhythmic innovation used by Dolphy in his improvisations. Eric Dolphy was also deeply inspired by the sounds of nature and seriously studied how to reproduce them on the flute. Some of these sounds, such wind and bird songs, he later incorporated into his solo improvisations and cadenzas. Eric Dolphy was a work-a-holic who practiced at every possible opportunity, even during the breaks between sets. He neither used drugs or drank alcohol. His premature death was caused by the fact that he was unaware of being a diabetic. Having started a natural health diet, he ingested large quantities of honey while on a particularly long and arduous European tour. The intake of so much sugar led first to sickness then quickly to a state of deep coma from which he never recovered. In the turbulent drug-ridden jazz environment of the sixties it is ironic that Eric Dolphy should die from an overdose of honey. His flute was bequeathed to his close friend, the legendary saxophonist John Coltrane, who played it on one of his last recordings.
When the revolutionary jazz flutist Eric Dolphy was touring in Europe he arranged to have lessons with Severino Gazzelloni during his stay in Italy. Already the possessor of an awesome technique, Eric Dolphy became extremely interested in the experimental work being done by Gazzelloni. (Listen to Eric Dolphy's composition `Gazzelloni' on the album 'Out To Lunch' dedicated to the great Italian flutist). Gazzelloni in turn was impressed by the adventurous rhythmic innovation used by Dolphy in his improvisations. Eric Dolphy was also deeply inspired by the sounds of nature and seriously studied how to reproduce them on the flute. Some of these sounds, such wind and bird songs, he later incorporated into his solo improvisations and cadenzas. Eric Dolphy was a work-a-holic who practiced at every possible opportunity, even during the breaks between sets. He neither used drugs or drank alcohol. His premature death was caused by the fact that he was unaware of being a diabetic. Having started a natural health diet, he ingested large quantities of honey while on a particularly long and arduous European tour. The intake of so much sugar led first to sickness then quickly to a state of deep coma from which he never recovered. In the turbulent drug-ridden jazz environment of the sixties it is ironic that Eric Dolphy should die from an overdose of honey. His flute was bequeathed to his close friend, the legendary saxophonist John Coltrane, who played it on one of his last recordings.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
The Instant Noodle Story.....
It was there, in 1958, that Momofuku Ando, a food industry executive who was appalled by the starvation he had witnessed in post-war Japan, boiled a batch of fresh noodles, fried them in palm oil and left them to dry into a solid brick: the cup noodle was born!
That year, his firm Nissin sold 13 million packets for 35 yen each at a time when the average monthly salary was 13,000 yen and fresh noodles were six times cheaper. But by 1970, annual sales had soared to 3.6 billion!!!!
The story of the Japan's "noodle king"
Momofuku Ando was born in Japanese-ruled Taiwan in 1910. He founded the predecessor to Nissin in 1948 and invented chicken ramen, the world's first instant noodles, at his home 10 years later. Noodles in a cup appeared in the early 12970s and now account for the bulk of Nissin's global sales.
NB: To the Japanese, the "cup noodle" isn't just a quick and easy snack - it is a cultural icon!
Mr. Ando, who retired as Nissin chairman last year, is the father of the instant noodle and is considered a national hero in Japan. WOW!
His quest to develop a quick and easy snack was inspired by the poverty he witnessed after Japan's defeat in the war, when people queued for hours outside ramen stalls.
"I invented instant noodles.... because I could imagine how happy people would be if I delivered ramen they could eat any time, anywhere, and safely. It was as simple as that," he said.
Wow! (*in awe*)
It was there, in 1958, that Momofuku Ando, a food industry executive who was appalled by the starvation he had witnessed in post-war Japan, boiled a batch of fresh noodles, fried them in palm oil and left them to dry into a solid brick: the cup noodle was born!
That year, his firm Nissin sold 13 million packets for 35 yen each at a time when the average monthly salary was 13,000 yen and fresh noodles were six times cheaper. But by 1970, annual sales had soared to 3.6 billion!!!!
The story of the Japan's "noodle king"
Momofuku Ando was born in Japanese-ruled Taiwan in 1910. He founded the predecessor to Nissin in 1948 and invented chicken ramen, the world's first instant noodles, at his home 10 years later. Noodles in a cup appeared in the early 12970s and now account for the bulk of Nissin's global sales.
NB: To the Japanese, the "cup noodle" isn't just a quick and easy snack - it is a cultural icon!
Mr. Ando, who retired as Nissin chairman last year, is the father of the instant noodle and is considered a national hero in Japan. WOW!
His quest to develop a quick and easy snack was inspired by the poverty he witnessed after Japan's defeat in the war, when people queued for hours outside ramen stalls.
"I invented instant noodles.... because I could imagine how happy people would be if I delivered ramen they could eat any time, anywhere, and safely. It was as simple as that," he said.
Wow! (*in awe*)
Monday, December 04, 2006
Job application personal/key statement #3.
Dealing effectively with pressure/challenge: Describe an example (not necessary clinical) of a time when you had to deal with pressure OR overcome a setback/challenge. What did you do and what was the outcome? (6)
I found moving from comforts of familiarity challenging. Adapting from climates described as “pressure cooker all-year round” to temperate Glasgow brought bouts of homesickness. That was compounded by financial strain that I was (quite honestly) unused to. The relative affluence back home was in stark contrast to Spartan lifestyle I adopt here. While securing a loan helped, a part-time job did an extra of broadening my horizons. Despite having school holidays dictated by festivals of Malaysia’s many ethnic groups, Glaswegian cultural diversity is still distinct from its Asian counterpart. Add that to unfamiliar medical system, hospital protocols and communication problems (we seem to speak a different “dialect” of English back in Malaysia), I felt like an alien mistakenly teleported from Mars. I finally found common-ground in the international language of sports. Through bonds of friendships and experience, I started to enjoy the discovery of life as here and of myself.
Dealing effectively with pressure/challenge: Describe an example (not necessary clinical) of a time when you had to deal with pressure OR overcome a setback/challenge. What did you do and what was the outcome? (6)
I found moving from comforts of familiarity challenging. Adapting from climates described as “pressure cooker all-year round” to temperate Glasgow brought bouts of homesickness. That was compounded by financial strain that I was (quite honestly) unused to. The relative affluence back home was in stark contrast to Spartan lifestyle I adopt here. While securing a loan helped, a part-time job did an extra of broadening my horizons. Despite having school holidays dictated by festivals of Malaysia’s many ethnic groups, Glaswegian cultural diversity is still distinct from its Asian counterpart. Add that to unfamiliar medical system, hospital protocols and communication problems (we seem to speak a different “dialect” of English back in Malaysia), I felt like an alien mistakenly teleported from Mars. I finally found common-ground in the international language of sports. Through bonds of friendships and experience, I started to enjoy the discovery of life as here and of myself.
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